Spring Has Sprung

So, I am sitting here on my bed, sniffling. Some might say it is because I am sitting here watching sappy love movies; others would say it is hayfever.

I might probably agree that it is a little of both.

I visited IKEA the other day and purchased a couple of items. I seriously did not spend that much money.

Not to mention my apartment is super clean because I had an inspection.

Anyway, spring has sprung in my little home.

See for yourself:

How cute is that bedspread?!

I have another that is in blue and white.

Oh and that vase, maybe one day I can have real flowers in it.

Maybe.

Now onto more pressing matters. I was standing in front of my mirror and noticed my legs.

I must admit there was a while there where I never thought I could get back to my seventeen year old legs; oh how I miss them. But I think I am almost there!

Must. Continue. To. Walk.

10 Things

So because Sass did it, I have thought I should do it to do. Honestly, there is no gun being held to my head. She isn't on skype either. Promise.

Hehe.

Ten Things I Love:

1. Ice cream. Cookies and cream is my favourite, just in case you are buying.

2. Shopping. I swear you can leave your credit card with me. It will be safe.

3. Pretty dresses. Finding them can be difficult at times though especially with the boobage.

4. Cuddles. I love squishy cuddles, don't-let-me-go cuddles, just-had-sex cuddles, it's-cold cuddles. Actually I love all types of cuddles.

5. Boys with the name "Ryan". I have a slight "thing" for Ryan Reynolds, Ryan Gosling and Beau Ryan.

6. Singing loudly. At the moment it is to Adele. Gawd that girl can sing, and I can too. Hehe.

7. Sex. There I said it. I love it. Cannot get enough of it. Especially when it is great, mind-blowing sex. Which is quite hard to come by these days.

8. Twitter. Fuck facebook in the face. Twitter is where it is at.

9. Navy stripes with red lippy. Oh my goodness it looks freaking amazing. I felt gorgeous the other day. Honest. Felt all "Hello Sailor-ish!"

10. My body. Over the past few months my body has changed so much; I am still a little in awe of its awesomeness. And at the moment I have positive body image 99% of the time. When I have my period all bets are off.

What about you? Huh? Spill!

Being Single

If you had asked me back at the beginning of the year, if I saw myself ending up single in April I probably would of shook my head and said never.

Because I thought what I had with my ex was it. Was perfect.

But after everything that happened with his sister where she was a bitch. But realistically, we all knew that she was a bitch before that. A moment where I needed his support the most which would end that perfect bubble.

Burst it and it was gone.

I have met a few guys since then.

They have all surprised me. Some not for good reasons, but really why should I waste my time and effort by blogging about them? [I shouldn't, so I won't. Plus they know that they are arseholes.]

But this morning, after one ah-mah-zing night, I realised that I like being single and I don't need a guy to make me happy*.

'Cause I already am happy!

* Some can make me smile a lot though.

Dating

I have this urge to go on a date.

Like the opening of my car door date. But not really.

I'm not into that type of date.

Sweep me off my feet with laughter instead.

Anyway, so yes. I want to go on a date. A proper date.

Not a "hangout".

Because I think date nights are very needed. In any relationship!

I Need A Man...

... That will stick up for me when he needs to.
... That doesn't rely on me to make him happy.
... That can cook, clean and make a bed.
... That gives a good snuggle.
... That can put things together.
... That can fish.
... That is a guys guy.
... That can tolerate my shopping addiction.
... That will tell me off when he needs to.
... That can argue with me, but then have awesome make up sex.
... That will walk in front of me, and guide me through crowds.
... That is confident.
... That can keep up with me in the bedroom.
... That will hold my hand is public.
... That will tell me I am beautiful/pretty/sexy/whatever at any opportunity.
... That gets along with my little sister, my mum and my stepdad.
... That is sweet.
... That is smart.
... That can make me laugh.
... That can make me smile through any type of communication.
... That loves twitter and understands my little addiction.
... That is able to be around children and not look awkward.
... Who loves me just as I am.

Night

I dislike the night.

I used to love the night.

The night meant snuggles, kisses, hands wandering, laughter, deep and meaningful conversations, twitter from beneath the covers, and other moments.

While I would occasionally have nightmares, sleep talk about random things or snore. My nights were perfect.

Last night I had no one to keep me warm, I had to use my own body heat and being completely honest with you, it sucked.

I am fine during the day, almost to the point where I don't notice that I am alone, but of the night, oh jeebus do I notice it.

If it isn't the lack of meaningful conversation, to having to warm my own toes in bed with no one to snuggle up behind me, or cooking for one, I am just getting pangs of alone.

It sucks.

Then the what ifs go through my mind and I just feel like maybe, just maybe, it should/could/would have been different.

Being Alone

I don't remember being alone. I have always had people around me. Which is probably why I am forever skyping with Sass or calling her. She no doubt is getting seriously sick of me.

Since I was sixteen there has always been a guy around. Be it a "special" friend, a boyfriend or just someone I texted all the time with serious flirtation.

I always had a male that I could turn to, that was proud of me, that would give me compliments, that would make me smile and laugh, and feel special.

The other day, I got an assignment back and I realised that I have no male to say to me that they were proud. It sucked.

Being single sucks.

[insert a sad face here]

Nawe

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What Makes My Heart Happy

I read a little quote yesterday, something about not being able to love another before you can find what makes your own heart happy.

There are a lot of things that make my heart happy.

A lot.

What makes my heart happy?

Listening to the rain fall. Finding something cute while shopping. Feeling the sun on my skin. Jumping in puddles. Laughing loudly. Talking. Smiling at random people. Giving others compliments. Being given a compliment. Looking in the mirror and loving what I see. Knowing that I am worth it. Getting squishy cuddles from babies. Receiving unexpected text messages. Listening to Mumford & Sons. Blogging. Learning more about me. Watching movies. Reading novels. Listening to love stories. Hearing from friends. Taking bubble baths. Watching butterflies. Eating ice cream, no matter the weather. Painting my toenails. Organising myself. Rainbows. Chocolate. Sparkly shoes. Taking photographs. Headbands. Stationery. Remembering. Strawberry thickshakes. Seeing my family. Growing my nails. Getting the giggles late at night. Grey's Anatomy. Having a good cry. Optimism. 

I could go on. But I think I will stop there.

What makes your heart happy?

<3

Exhausted

After spending over an hour, I actually think it was closer to two, crying. I am exhausted.

I spent the night in an empty house, which for me is no easy feat. I actually expected to wake up all hours of the night. Being my usual scaredy-cat self.

But I must of been exhausted.

So right now, I'm blogging from the train because I hit snooze on my alarm one too many times this morning and didn't have the chance to post then and I feel like I could fall asleep right now, not to mention it took a lot of makeup to fix the eyes this morning.

Happy Thursday x

Apple Love

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I am desperately wanting an iPad.

Yes, I realise that we are saving but now that I have a full time job, with a great income, we will have a little extra money each month to play with. Bonus right?

So I think that we could get an iPad. Or two.

I love apple. I think I have even converted the boyfriend too. Who now is wanting a MacBook Pro.

<3

Real Men Wear Pink?

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<3

I Heart Ice Cream

Ice cream would have to be my favourite dish. It is the best.

Be it vanilla with sprinkles.

Or cookies and cream.

Or even hokey pokey.

Say those little words, "ice cream" and I am there. Instantly.

I am going to admit right now, never tried Ben & Jerry's. I am told that I should. I will eventually, just show me where one is and I will go!

Baskin 'n' Robbins is my favourite here.

But back at home, I loved the ice cream from the shop I used to work at. The Natural Waffle Ice Cream Parlour.

I loved working there. The freebies. The deliciousness. It was always important to taste test. Always.

Anyway, the other night we did a food shop. Over two hundred dollars later, we left with ice cream and ice magic.

Just quietly. If you have not had vanilla ice cream with sprinkles and ice magic. I am telling you now, go and try it.

I am, once the damn bowls finish in the dishwasher!

How Do You Know?

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Love. I believe in that head over heals, kiss me deeply, sweep me off my feet, happily ever after love.

But...

How do you know when you are in love?

<3

Love Him

When the boyfriend arrived home yesterday, he explained that his neck was stiff.

He had slept on it badly the night before and could barely move it!

I helped him out, getting his dinner, tea and icecream with sprinkles.

But what I loved most was when we climbed into bed.

I was facing him.

Then he tells me, "lay your way".

This results in extreme bouts of giggling from my end.

Eventually, after I stopped giggling, I rolled over to face the other way.

For about the first hour, we don't sleep touching, he had is arm around me.

Was bliss.

<3

Love That Bag

When we were shopping at one of the shopping centres the other day, I stepped into Colette [which is one of my new favourite stores!] and found this gorgeous bag:

No idea what the price is, but isn't it just so pretty?

And doesn't every girl need a blue handbag?

<3

Five Reasons I Cannot Wait To Become a Mum

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ONE.
I was born to be a mum.

TWO.
I love children. It is what I love to do every day.

THREE.
I want that feeling of knowing that I am growing something so precious.

FOUR.
Babies are just incredible; the softest skin, sweetest smell, cutest chubby cheeks.

FIVE.
I should put these hips to use.

SIX.
To be honest, no amount of words can express this desire.

<3

ps. I know I said five, but six just needed to be included.